True friends, do they exist?

Hey, computer people!

Fist of all i wanna ask you, do you have a true friends or we often called they best friends, do you have it? If you do, i will happy for ya, but if you dont have one, dont be sad cause i dont have too. It was sad. Really. I know  how the feel being lonely, sad, and useless. Sometimes i got jealous when i saw people having good times or do something fun with their best friends. I ever read quotes like, bestfriend is more than sisters. You know after all this time, i really hope that i will find a true friends. But i haven’t found one. My friends is just like, use me or they will forgetting me so fast. I dont know why. And im sick of it. Maybe they dont feel anything when they treat me like a strangers. It was suck. I just can do the same even i feeling so bad when i do that things. But when i remind if they dont even care with me anymore now, im upset and promise to my self that i wont being friendship with them anymore. I hate for being replaced. I hate for being optional. But the truth, they never put me on the first place. They always break my heart.